AHH.

I cannot wait to get out of this house.
I cannot wait to call another room my room.
I cannot wait to say some other place is home.

I can't take this place anymore.
Yelling, screaming, the TV is always on LOUD.
I just want some peace and fucking quiet.
I just need OUT.

The Thing I Need To Learn

With these people, it's okay to get annoyed. It's okay to not be happy with them. It's okay to not always be smiling. And it's okay to say how you actually, truly feel.

I'm sorry I didn't say everything upfront like I should have. I've never been able to do that before. My friendships have always been about putting up a front, wearing a different face, and being a version of yourself for someone else.

I'm learning more and more that, not only should I not do that, doing that hurts more than helps.

I love my friends more than anything. Problem? Call me in the middle of the night, middle of the day, and no matter where you are, who you're with, or what you're doing, I'll be there. Because I love you. And that's what we do for people we love.

(Post Script: I'm making a collage of friends and people I love on a new empty space of my wall. So... if you have any pictures, send them to me< 3)