1.5 weeks into summer. I'm late.

I love having cool, fresh air in the middle of summer.  It always relaxes me.  It gets so warm in my tiny room that opening the window is like starting something entirely new.  

That's kind of what this summer is for me.  It's a time to reset and restart.

This is definitely the busiest summer I've ever had.  Between summer work, babysitting(finally steadily), traveling, visitors, and hanging around with friends, I feel like I'm not giving myself the chance to be bored. But, I think that's okay.  

This is also my Most Looked Forward To summer.  In the past, I've never really appreciated summer vacation.  I've never really had the opportunity to. But, now that I'm surrounded by people that I truly love and trust, I feel like I can really enjoy this time of year when temperatures rise unreasonable amount, fruits are getting ripe, everywhere you go there is an unmistakable smell of sunscreen, and people are always talking about movies or the beach or swimming or other things like that. 

I guess I finally realized that summer is more than just a ridiculously hot season where kids have nothing to do.  It's an amazing time of the year where we are free to decide what we do, when we do it, and who we are with.  There are so many opportunities lurking in this season. 

LET'S GO! :D  

12:30 slap-happys

I guess I just cannot win for losing.  

You know those morals that your parents always push on you?  Study hard?  Help others? 

Well... I am sitting in my kitchen, working via phone with Lili on Chem.  It is 12:15 in them morning.  

My dad walks in and starts yelling at me.  

I don't get it: he wants me to study.  So I do.  And then he's upset cause I'm up too late.  

He wants me to be a good friend and help others.  So I try my best to be.  And he's upset I'm on the phone.  

Go figure.  

Parents piss me off.

Here is that really really long-awaited picture hahaha

Since I kept on forgetting... and I don't want to go to bed yet... :)

This is the Golden Gate Bridge from the San Francisco headed to Marin side.  That may or may not be spelled right, just warning you.  

So... yeah.  I've decided that I hate Los Angeles and pretty much anything south of it. But, the Bay Area is pretty cool.  

So... there you go.  Everyone should go there at least once in their lives.  

"Let's nuke the bridge we torched 2,000 times before..."

(PS: Bonus points for anyone who can tell me where an illustration of this bridge exploding can be found)

Just One Of Those Weekends...

Where I am up till 1:30 AM on the Sunday before I have to go back for my last week of classes.  I still haven't finished my math homework and I'm really not all that tired.  

I keep having extreme emotions. 

Sometimes, I am really happy.  Like, I just want to hug everyone and tell them how amazing they are.  

Then, I'm sad.  Because at some point the present will end and become the future.  That's not saying that the future won't be amazing, beautiful, and full of happiness, too, but sometimes things are just so wonderful I don't want to let them go.  

Or else I'm angry.  Angry with those around who refuse to compromise.  Angry with so-called friends who don't seem to understand what friendship actually is.  Angry with people who can't even pretend to be happy for the sake of those around them, just to see their friends smiling or enthusiastic about something.  Angry at myself for not working harder in the past year and a half to become who I want to be.  Angry at my parents for not listening to a word I have to say.  Angry at my brothers for not understanding why I can't cater to their every need. Angry with the government for not finishing jobs that it started long ago.  Angry with my teachers for not giving enough time to review and study. 

At this point, I stop caring and decide that the world will somehow fix itself.  

Rinse and repeat.  

Think I'll get some sleep now.  

"If I could open my arms..."

PS: Star Trek was amazing.  I highly recommend it.  I wish the final battle scene had been more epic, but it was still absolutely amazing.