The New Year's Resolution Blog

A lot of people have been doing this, so I figured I would join in despite the fact I am late.

So... New Year's resolutions are working a little differently for me this year. It's more about self awareness, less about changing myself. Let's start with the list, shall we?

Number 1: Stereotypical New Year's resolution of almost everyone I know: lose weight and get fit. This has been my resolution for half my life now.... not an exaggeration in the slightest. I feel gross and icky and I want to feel good about how I look. I want to be fit and able to run. Which is something I am working on, actually... much more so than I ever have in the past. And it's going well. Much better than I had expected.

Number 2: Cut down on swearing. I didn't really care that much about this one until today, actually. I had a difficult driving day (don't really want to talk about it) with a few friends in the car and was cursing quite a bit. The thing is: I didn't even know it. That scares me... to be yelling out curse words without noticing or really caring. Yikes. I felt bad and angry with myself. Despite how stressed I get, I would like to know I can control myself, especially when it comes to the way I talk.

Number 3: Be less sarcastic. Now, for you who know me well, this is going to seem like an impossible feat. I am extremely sarcastic. Every other thing that comes out of my mouth is sarcastic. I just can't stop. Another thing that scares me. I know it's a habit that drives my friends crazy sometimes because it's never ending and annoying. I mean, who wants to deal with someone who constant is throwing out smart aleck responses? No one.

Number 4: Be more reliable. I'm terrible at being reliable. At least, when it comes to doing things. I want people to know they can count on me when they need help and that I will do whatever I can to help without forgetting, which I always do. I really dislike that part about me and I want it to change.

Number 5: Stop using strong words as much as I do. I've known people who refuse to say hate, but say love all the time. I mean, that's a good thing, to love and not hate; to give love freely and not give hate a chance to rear its ugly head. But, I feel like both words are a little overused. Personally, I don't hate. There may be awful people in the world, but I don't hate. Hatred is something too angry, dark, and low for me to understand. I dislike, but not hate. And love is beautiful, happy... it's great and wonderful and powerful. But when a person says they love this and they love that... the word loses its power and meaning. Love is a big word to throw around, in my opinion. It means more than most give it credit for.

Number 6: Help my family more. Because I know I don't do enough around the house, like helping with the dog or keeping my room clean.

Number 7: Work harder in school because it matters. And I need a good work ethic.

Number 8: Make this a year full of memories and good times. I can't afford a bad year tainted by petty fights. Hopefully all of my resolutions will help this happen.

2009 was the year I wanted to find who I am. Instead, I found people I love and love me.

2010, you are the year I become who I have always wanted to be.